Introduction: The Ebb and Flow of Faith
For many of us, the spiritual life feels less like a straight path and more like a wave. There are moments of intense connection and clarity—high points where grace feels tangible and God feels near. Then there are the low points: seasons of numbness, apathy, and a disquieting sense of distance. Our natural instinct is to label these states: the highs are good, the lows are bad. We chase the former and flee the latter.
But what if this understanding is incomplete? What if the true spiritual danger isn’t found in the low point itself, or even in the high point, but in a subtle shift of focus that can happen in either state? This article explores a few surprising truths about navigating the inevitable waves of faith, helping us find our balance without losing our way.
The Real Danger Isn’t the Wave, It’s Losing Sight of the Shore
The first truth is to accept the nature of faith: it is a wave, not a straight line. The moments of fervent feeling and the seasons of quiet lethargy are both parts of the natural rhythm. The real risk, the one the scriptures warn us about, is not the high or the low itself. The true danger in both states is the same: the “heart that loses Jesus.”
How we lose sight of him differs depending on where we are on the wave.
• At the low point, the risk is that numbness and apathy (무감각과 권태) will steal our attention. We become so consumed by the lack of feeling that our will to even look toward God begins to fade.
• At the high point, the risk comes from anxiety and spiritual overheating (불안과 과열), often fueled by an excessive sense of responsibility or a fear-based over-immersion. Our gaze shifts from Jesus to our own spiritual performance, and we lose our center.
In both extremes, the core problem is identical: our attention has been drawn away from its proper center.
The Solution is “Purity”—But Not What You Think
If the danger is a loss of focus, then the solution is a restoration of it. The answer is a single concept: Purity (정결).
However, it’s crucial to redefine this term. In this context, purity is not about achieving a “morally good state” or feeling spiritually clean. Purity is not about keeping the heart clean, but about protecting the gaze that looks at Jesus. It is not about the condition of your emotions but the direction of your gaze.
Purity = A state of mind where the direction toward Jesus does not become blurred.
This redefines the goal. The aim is not to eliminate the low feelings or to sustain the high ones indefinitely. The aim is to protect our line of sight to Jesus, regardless of the emotional weather. Purity is the discipline of keeping our vision fixed on him, not on the waves themselves.
How to Stay on the “Purity Centerline”
Maintaining this focus is a practical discipline. It requires different actions depending on whether you are in a spiritual trough or on a crest.
When You Feel Numb (The Lows)
The primary problem in a low state isn’t the death of emotion, but the fading of the will to look toward Jesus. The practical form of purity here is not to force an emotional experience, but to maintain the fundamental connections. It is the commitment to “small units” of scripture and prayer, even when they feel dry or fruitless. This act of will keeps the channel open and the directional gaze intact.
When You Feel Overheated (The Highs)
The danger in a high state is often a fear-based immersion, driven by an excessive sense of responsibility. We may feel an anxious need to do more or feel more to keep the experience going. Purity in this state is expressed through moderation. It is “the moderation of looking only as much as Jesus has given,” refusing to let anxiety or a desire for control hijack the moment of grace.
To help maintain this centerline through both highs and lows, we can rely on three timeless anchors.
• The Word (Logos): John’s Gospel presents Jesus as the Logos—the eternal reason and order of God. The Word fixes our centerline because it is an unchanging, objective truth that stands apart from our fluctuating emotions.
• Prayer (Ruach): Ruach is the Hebrew for “spirit” or “breath.” Prayer is the act of engaging with the Spirit, who realigns our inner world and turns our heart back from its drift.
• The Character of Jesus (Agape): Agape is the selfless, divine love that defines Jesus’s character. To return our gaze to his character is to return to the ultimate source and example of our faith.
These three anchors work together to ensure the direction of the wave always turns upward, toward God.
Conclusion: The Center Holds
Spiritual lows pass, and spiritual highs pass. They are temporary states, waves on the surface of a much deeper reality. But the center does not change. The goal is not to live on a perpetual high or to avoid every low, but to learn to live on the “purity centerline,” where our gaze remains fixed on the one who is constant.
Lows and highs are guaranteed. Losing your direction is not. In the midst of your current spiritual wave, where is your gaze truly directed?
